Pop Quiz: August Anxiety
At the beginning of every August as my summer draws to a close and the first day of school approaches the dreams start. They come once or twice a week at first, but by this time halfway through August they are every night and usually multiple times a night. They are not so much nightmares, more like nightponies. Enough to wake me up in frustration, but not enough to scare me awake. They are the manifestation of my back to school anxiety.
What do I have to be anxious over? Just learning 130 names, learning personalities and learning styles, deciding what to change from last year’s plan and what to keep, will I have enough books? Will I have enough seats? These are all little things, but these and a hundred other little things contribute to these dreams.
Some of the dreams are classic and universal; I’m not wearing shoes, or I’m still in my pajamas. Most are school specific. I am taking my class someplace, a field trip or to an assembly and I lose a student. I search and find them only to realize that a different student has disappeared and the dream repeats. My most common dream, one that I usually have every night in the week before school starts, is that I have lost control of my class and I cannot complete my lesson. Nothing works to get my class back on track. I run around putting out figurative fires, but can never get the whole class back on task.
In last night’s version of this dream I was getting the class back on task until loud opera music began to play. Alright I told the class, we cannot think with this music so loud. Please turn it off. No one did. I saw a radio and I turned it off, but the music still played without skipping a beat. Looking around I saw another radio and when I turned it off the music still played. My frustration growing I see another radio; I turn it off only to still hear the music. I wake with frustration and a growing feeling of admiration for the coordination it took to pull off this prank.
So my question for you today is Do you have back to school anxiety? How does it manifest for you? How do you cope?
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